The trick

The trick to making it through, I've found so far, is to not really think about it. Don't get me wrong, it's always there, just beneathe the surface, and it comes to mind many, many times a day. But to keep my composure and sanity, I can't REALLY THINK ABOUT IT. If I let myself remember the details or get caught up in fully appreciating the loss, then things get really, really hard. Today, I'm having a hard time not thinking about it.