Tonight

I nursed Fisher to sleep, then held his little solid body, stared at his peaceful face, smelled his baby skin, and kissed his sweet cheeks and neck.  I couldn't help but wonder how it would feel to hold her---how much would she  weigh right now?  What would she look like?  How much hair would she have?  Would it still be as blond as it was when she was born, the tiniest hint of red like Fisher, or darker blond/brown like Hayes?  Would she resemble Fisher or have her very own looks?  What would she smell like?  Would my lips fit perfectly into the crook of her neck to give her sweet kisses?